March 21st

Roughly 48 hours and counting. I have been toying with the idea of relationships ; and I guess love mostly; leaving a stain on people. Like a visible mark. But I guess like a stain - it fades with time. You know like every relationship that has mattered to a person leaves a stain, an imprint. It is not turning into a poem or a lyric so I am going to forget it for awhile.

I fucking hate it when people eat with their mouth open - or when they crunch food really louding - like they are eating in a room all alone. I remember I worked with someone once who could not be in the same room with someone eating a raw carrot. She got so mad ! I get that now. It really is irritating. But it is one of those things that if you tell people it bugs you they think that you are crazy.
Like how I also hate people standing behind me when I am on the computer. Ok - I should stop before I really start to rant. Life if too short right ?
In my head I still imagine myself like I was years ago. It is always shocking when I look in the mirror or worse - when I see myself in a picture ! AHHHHHH.
What is it with all of these shows on tv now - where they do ordinary stuff like interviews etc - only naked. I think it is so lame. It is so unimaginative and , at times pretty gross. I was just channel surfing and suddenly there were people in a diner and a naked girl walks in and sits down on one of the metal counter stools - YUK. I am sure about this - I do not get why anyone would want to watch that stuff. There are so many places to view the human form in a much more flattering and , well , more dignified light. It's not that I am a prude - not at all. It is just so ridiculous.